Moving out for the first time


I was 19, when I moved out.

And I did not just move out, I moved 80 km (50 miles) away from my home.

These are some of my mistakes regarding moving out for the first time and thoughts about living on your own. Which means that it does not apply to everyone.

Mistake number 1:

My parents have been divorced since 2001, and I moved out from my mom’s place, when I was 16 and lived permanently with my dad after that. I thought I had tried this before and knew what to expect.

What happened:

I moved away from everyone I knew, to a town where I did not go to school or had anyone I knew. I lived with my, now ex, boyfriend and the apartment was close to his job, his family and his friends.

So I felt alone. Often. Especially during the first two months.

Mistake number 2:

The first time I moved out, I lived with someone who I was in a relationship with. If it ended, I was screwed.

What happened:

We lived together for two years, almost to the day. I had no time to find myself, he was always there. I became another person, because he wanted me to be different.

It took some time, but I found myself. It took a lot of courage and planning to move out, before I said anything to him. Because of the distance from him to my parents.

Mistake number 3:

He liked the town his parents lived in and wanted to start his life there.

What happened:

His mother hated me. I am not joking. She preferred his ex-girlfriend to me and asked about her frequently.

She told me after a vacation we all took, that I had ruined hers, because I did not participate in all the activities. She never asked me, if anything was wrong. I had a depression.

The best thing about mistakes is that you learn from them. In my life this was a big one, and it was really hard to handle. I was lucky. I had amazing friends who helped me, and family that guided me in this strange and emotional situation.

I hope you will learn from this.

Until next time.



Why I disappeared??


I am back!

I was MIA most of the summer and fall. Mostly because of work.

I lost my summer vacation to work…

But it was not all bad, because I am happy to announce that I am in the process of getting my YouTube channel up and running. This would not be possible, without the money I earned this summer (I did not have the proper lights for my mini “studio”).

So right now, I am participating in meetings about starting my own business, so I can build up my company.

At the same time I am going to school and filming my very first video. I am a busy bee.

And I have decided to be more visible! So from now on, there will be more pictures on Instagram and if I really get my s*** together, there will be more posts on twitter.

All of this means something  blog wise. I will not be writing as much as I did before the summer vacation. Mostly because YouTube will substitute the beauty blogs I wrote before.

Which I think is easier. Then I can show you the products instead. But I will try to write at least one blog per week. I hope.

I have an internship coming up as  part of my studies, so please forgive me, if I forget.

If you have any suggestions for makeup tutorials or questions, just ask.

But anyways, I am back in school, and able to write whenever inspiration hits me. Which is why my blog is back again.